the lonely warrior.

the heart wants what the heart wants... since no one reads this i thought it'd be a safe place to write down my thoughts. i've been so restless these past few days. i lay in bed and all these thoughts and questions circle my mind. i'm having second thoughts about the peace corps. the more i think about it, the more i don't want to go. 27 months is a really long time. and what if i don't like it? i can be so selfish sometimes. but if i'm really honest with myself- the real reason why i'm hesitant about going to the peace corps is because of all the memories i'll be missing out on. 27 months is a long time. but it's always been my dream to go. i can only hope that i am going for the proper reasons. life is short. i keep telling myself that. and whatever is meant to be, will be. i wish he were coming with me.